The feared Unknown
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The Allowance of the Feared Unknown
To believe in absolute truth is to live within the judgment of all your beliefs against that absolute; everything you believe becomes either right or wrong, depending on whether or not it is “the truth”. This is to be contained by your beliefs through the idea that truth transcends being. It is to believe that truth is transcendent—that ascension comes from knowing “the truth”. This is to give validity to the mind over the heart, thought over feeling, which is truth over being. It is to set truth up above all else as something to be worshipped, rather than seeing that your beingness is the creator of truth. The release of “the truth” is the birth of the freedom to believe whatever it is that your heart feels to believe. This is your freedom: believe whatever you feel to believe. Initially it may seem naÃ¯ve or even dangerous. To the logical mind it is chaos; it is madness. It is the release of all structure, and that is to say control. It is to let go of controlling yourself and allow yourself to be what you are.
What in the world would happen if people believed whatever they wanted? What on Earth would happen if people just did whatever they felt to do? The fear in these questions is the fear of freedom. What could “be yourself” mean other than be who you choose to be? freedom is to give yourself permission to believe and do whatever you feel to; without guilt, shame, or any other form of control—without limitation. The primary resistance to this realization of freedom is the belief that if people did whatever they wanted, the world would spin out of control and there would be anarchy.
This primal fear is our distrust and fear of our own nature. It is the fear that deep within we are not to be trusted; we are barbaric; we are evil; we are depraved. It is the belief that it is our controls that keep us civilized—the belief in the validity of control. This creates a reality where we are both controlling and controlled. It is civilization through control. This comes from the fear that what we fear about ourselves is real. This is the fundamental wound of this reality—the deepest point of internal separation. The facing of this deepest fear about yourself is the gateway to your Godhood. Within the healing of this wound is the realization of your love and safety—the realization that you are safe to do and believe whatever you wish. You do not need to fear what you will desire if you are free to desire anything. You do not need to fear what you will do if you are free to do anything. You do not need to fear what you will be if you are free to be anything. Release your fear of what you are. Give yourself the permission to be free. You are free to be whatever you wish to be.
Your heart is not a Pandora’s Box. You do not need to fear what is within you. This primal fear that we are essentially chaotic and savage was the founding of the logic through which we separated from our power to be. We gave over our sovereignty to our minds to control and limit us out of our fear of our limitless freedom. We asked for the safety of regulations, boundaries, moral codes, and behavioral restrictions. Out of the fear of what we would be without limits, we externalized the limitlessness of our power to be. Through this separation it then became possible to control each other through the illusion of fear. Every person ultimately chooses for themselves, but by persuading someone of the validity of a fear through a co-created experience, it is possible to influence their choice.
Because of our fears we feel that we need controls to keep us safe, both from ourselves and from each other. Fear and control are one. We are controlled by our fears. Behind every control is fear of what reality would be without that control. To release fear is to release control. All fear is fear of the unknown. To release fear is to release this feared unknown into being. It is to allow the unknown to be; to the mind this is to allow the potential for anarchy. It is to allow the surfacing of the demons we fear lurk within us. It is to release what you are and allow it to be, fear and all, no matter what. It is to walk through a wall of fire, not knowing what is on the other side. This is a reflection of the original choice we made to incarnate here. It is to face the unknown uncontrollable freedom of this reality.
The allowance of the unknown is the allowance of ‘not knowing’ in your being. It is to release the need to know what will happen. It is the letting go of the need to have an answer to every question you have. There is nothing that you need to know. There is no idea in existence that you are diminished through not knowing. In every moment your state of knowledge is perfect. Anything that you think you would be of greater worth for knowing is a way in which you are caught in an illusion that you are currently inferior.
The need to know everything is a controlling compulsion that is fed by fear. It is a reflection of a desire to control reality. The need to know what is going to happen is the desire to experience a moment before it has arrived. It is an attempt to diffuse the vitality of experience. Knowing what is going to happen does create a momentary sense of safety; however, it equally serves to maintain your fear of the unknown. It separates you from the excitement of the unexpected. All need is a control we are exerting on ourselves through beliefs we are carrying. Needing to know creates a controlled reality. There is nothing wrong in this if that is what you desire. This type of reality is however highly resistant to the allowance of new experience. Only familiar experiences, which you have preconceived through your need to know what is coming, are allowed. This is the formation of a rut, a state where similar experience is continually regurgitated.
All beliefs are essentially preconceptions. They are a choice to believe that reality is a certain way. The beliefs you are most attached to exert the greatest control and therefore limitation. Your reality is shaped by your beliefs because you perceive the infinite possibility of your freedom through them. You are therefore contained within them as you reduce the infinite into something singular—a story. Though we tend to feel that the need to know is a drive that will lead us to new knowledge, its effect is quite the opposite. To be self-identified with the need to know comes from the desire to feel that you know “the truth”. Needing to know, limits the experience of your reality to what you can preconceive. It is to confine your reality through resisting what you are.
The need to know is a fear of not knowing—the fear of not knowing something that you believe your safety or worth depends on. There is nothing you need to know. How does that change your reality? Can you let go of needing to know? Can you let go of the quest for absolute truth? Can you live in the freedom of choosing what you believe from how it makes you feel? Can you let go of the structure and direction that a search for absolute truth gives? Can you let go of your questions through trusting that you are safe? Can you let life be an unpredictable surprise? Can you let yourself walk into new territory with no idea of what is there? Can you live without fear?
The allowance of not knowing is the release of fear. It is to transform limited possibility into infinite possibility. It is the allowance of anything happening—the allowance of chaos. Why would you want to do this? It is to release all the controls of your incarnate self and instead allow the creation of your reality to flow from your infinite-self—your heart. It is to create your reality as God—from love. Knowledge can never lead you to your Godhood. The infinite is beyond definition. Knowledge is an avoidance of being. God cannot be contained in an idea. Let go of the shield of knowledge. Let go of needing to know what you are, and be what you are.