“Let your intuition guide you through the texts.”
It is only semantics as to whether we describe ourselves in terms of what we allow or what we resist. This is because the description of one is a description of both (as to not allow is to resist). All dualistic polarities are descriptions of a single quality that exists on a perceptually polarized scale—rather than two opposing qualities.
This is because all dualistic descriptions are relative. For example, fat and thin are two ends of the polarity of the quality of how we perceive someone’s weight—they are not two different qualities. How heavy someone looks is not absolute—it is perceptually determined in relation to those who surround them. Someone who is not in judgment of a quality is able to express that quality using terms from either end of its dualistic scale. For example, ‘I am that which I allow’ is equivalent to ‘I am that which I do not resist’.
The idea of indifference is a way in which we often mask our more subtle feelings of resistance. When we want to see the dualistic terms as separate, we do so by imagining a middle quality—such as, ‘I am indifferent’—that is thought to not be either the state of resistance or allowance. While there is a mental logic to this, it is not reality. Feeling indifferent—like feeling nothing—is an oxymoron. There is nothing for which we feel nothing.
We did not design ourselves to feel indifferent—as spirit does not create us with the intention to feel nothing. All things within the human experience are inherently neutral—as a reflection of the equality of all—but all perception is inherently charged because it is in a state of change (because we have chosen to experience linear-time).
For example, although it is logically possible to think ‘I am indifferent to my weight’, we do not walk around feeling ‘I am indifferent to my weight’. Generally, we either feel we would like to be at least a little fatter or thinner, or we divide our body up such that there are ‘parts of us’ we feel are too fat or too thin.
The realization here is that there is no particular place on a dualistic scale that can be described as indifference. There is only allowance and resistance for anything—with what we call ‘indifference’ being a state of resistance to the whole. To say you are indifferent to something is to say you are in denial of your resistance to it. This is because—when unaltered through fear-based perception—the default state is allowance because our spirit is always aware of the feeling of connection.